So im in the fishbowl at school testing for stupid math, but; i finished. so imaa write this because i have no life. so todayss goinn alright. i mean its school so. yeah my familyss so much more fucked thaan it was before. and idk what to do anymore. my girls are helpinn me through it. but; i honeslty dont think i can deal with it anymore. i wanna go live in newyork and start overr. im goin ot with zack chase now. and i feel like itll lasst a while and workout but i never reallly know. andd i said this about many guyss in the past soo idk yet. hes really nice and i hope he means everything he says. lately ive been trying to buckle down but keep on failing. its hard idk whats wrong with me i used to be the best student and kid. and now i feel like im letting myself down and everyone around me. thursday im going to the studio with hectorr and gonna record some shitt fun fun huh? hah. and thenn fridaay i have show choiir competetion and thaan saturdaay at 1! i have districts itss a massachusetts choiir audition and oonly like one of us will make itt. hopefully itll be me. but; yaa never know. caitlins reading everything i type but itss all guuud (; :P hahaha. mr.B'a the besst teacherr i lovee him ha <3 soo yeaah ill getttt back to thiss all laterr on anotherr blogg. hasstaaa lavisstaa :*

fuck it all

So i have came to the conclusion that all guys are a waistt of my time. and that falling in love isn't worth anyone's time because its only about hurt and lies. and who's to settle for thatt? i hate being played and told shit that's not true, and i only trust like 4? guys right now. and 2 of them consist of my brothers. well in a way 3. but still! im so done with any guy that only wants ass. im done with any BOY that is only gonna stick around for a week. I'm done with all of you assholes who call your selves "men" because your not a man to me until you prove it. and i mean show me what it means to be in love because myself? i don't even know the meaning. no body does. and honestly no one ever will. im 14 years old and im heart broken as can be and still have many more heart breaks to come.. and forever to go

i am in school right now and its 2:01 and im testinng for english and i gotta 230! better than alotta people (:

So, today was pretty fun woke up at like 9! & went to friendly's with my sister and dad yeah hahaha always fun! then we went to my grandma's and hungout for a bit. yeah i hang with old people for a living. me and my sister made this weird video! because well shes the fucking shit. and then we went to the movies where we seen "my bloody valentine" in 3D it bommmbb (: haha! I DIDNT GET MY CELL! and im very mad about that. maybe next weekend? hopefully : / we came home and i sat my ass on the computer. and then went to have dinner with my family (: yes yes <3 hhaha and then i ate some ice cream! outta the carton i will add! <3 with chocolate syrup (: & then i went and took a shower.. straightendd me hairrr and all tht shit! (: haha. and thenn i came down here and thats about ittt. sooooo! imaa go to bed now. oh & btw i like someone! ttfn <3 goodnight (: